What’s this life for

I wake up every morning at 4am. I fix his lunch. Make his breakfast and coffee. Drive him to work, even though I don’t have a license and im out on bond with 5 years over my head if I screw up again. I goto work. Come home to clean our temporary home. Wash his clothes. Goto the grovery store. Somehow I manage to squeeze in time to work out and tan before I gotta pick him up. I try so hard to look good for him. Most days we cant even make it home before he has something to accuse me of. I cook dinner. Clean the kitchen. By this time his mouth is too much to deal with. I keep a bottle of my favorite vodka in the fridge. It’s the only way I can numb the pain. Im stuck somewhere between saying fuck it and begging him not to leave. A person can only take so much. I’ve dealt with more than enough.

I wasn’t even able to get my glasses that I do desperately need because I spent all my money on him. He threw a bitch fit so I would buy him minutes for his phone. He didn’t want to be without. I don’t even have a phone. I ain’t had one in months.

What’s this life for anyway? To live miserably? ¬†Obviously so.

Never again. I’ve come so far. Why let one insecure BOY ruin all that


Something to think about

As we grow older, and hence wiser, we slowly realize that wearing a $300 or a $30.00 watch – – they both tell the same time. Whether we carry a $300 or a $30.00 wallet/handbag – – the amount of money inside is the same. Whether we drink a bottle of $300 or $15 wine – – the hangover is the same. Whether the house we live in is 300 or 3000 sq. ft. – – loneliness is the same. Whether you drive a $8,000 Honda or a $80,000 Benz –they both serve the same purpose. You will realize, your true inner happiness does not come from the MATERIAL things of this world.

Therefore, I hope you realize, when you have mates, buddies and old friends, brothers and sisters, who you chat with, laugh with, talk with, have sung songs with, talk about north-south-east-west or heaven and earth – – That is true happiness!!


1. Don’t educate your children to be rich. Educate them to be happy. So when they grow up they will know the value of things not the price.

2. Best awarded words: “Eat your food as your medicines. Otherwise you have to eat medicines as your food.”

3. The One who loves you will never leave you because even if there are 100 reasons to give up he or she will find one reason to hold on.

4. There is a big difference between a human being and being human. Only a few really understand it.

5. You are loved when you are born. You will be loved when you die. In between, You have to manage!

6. If you just want to Walk Fast, Walk Alone! But if you want to Walk Far, Walk Together!


1. Sunlight

2. Rest

3. Exercise

4. Diet

5. Self Confidence and

6. Friends

Maintain them in all stages of Life and enjoy a healthy life.

The older we get, the fewer things seem worth waiting in line for.